if only half of my school could understand that it isn’t my choice to be a fucking midget and weigh 20 pounds underweight, they either think I am a freak for it or they wish they could be “as skinny and tiny as me” NO YOU DON’T DAMN IT, I can barely fit into a womens 5 in shoes, I have to buy kids shoes. do you know how hard it is to find a pair of heels that will fit me? do you know how frustrating it is to barely fit into a zero, but wearing a childs size 12 fits you even more weird? you think it’s fun being picked on every day? to feel like everyone sees you as an 11 year old? to become a bitch to people and become mean because they think so low of you, and you pretend like they are full of shit and you are better, but the truth is they are RIGHT do you think I don’t think how much of a freak I am all the time? having your mom think that you have an eating disorder all the time, taking you to special doctors, getting fucking tests done, being put on medicine for 2 years, always getting injured because of my lack of muscle and fat and skfjshf, yeah it fucking sucks. words stick with you and it just makes you feel worse. honestly think before you fucking speak, people can be beyond insecure you wouldn’t even understand how worthless they feel.

(via bianc-a)